Lots of "happy" medicine administered to make me sleepy and dull the pain, and off I go onto a good 4-5 hour sleep. Once again, I am supported by family and cared for while I sleep. Wonderful love shown throughout these times of discomfort and uncertainty. Time does fly by when drugged and internal warfare goes on, and soon it was time to be led out of the hospital to the waiting truck. Still very doped up and drowsy, we reached home -- safe and sound.
This walk or journey that I am on, has its ups and downs that is for sure. But, I am certain that God has His purpose in all of this even though I still have questions as to why it had to take place. I am learning to live by faith and to know HOPE more dearly. Hope that these days of "chemo fog" when memory is gone, nausea and jelly legs overrule, restless nights and whirling thoughts confuse, are things of the past.
"For we walk by faith, not by sight" II Cor. 5:7
In my devotions it reads, " Every time you step out in faith and obedience to the word of God, you will land on the solid ground of His will being fulfilled in your life. The solid ground of grace."
I desire to live by faith and I am praying that when they take the C-T scan next week on Thursday, I will be able to testify with all my might, all my being, of what God has been doing in my body. He did rise with healing in His wings and I am His child.
Dear Colleen, as I read each of your posts I can see your smile and the glint in your eyes even through the suffering and pain. It truly is our Almighty and Compassionate God who is being glorified through this. I am drawn to know Him in a deeper level of intimacy myself while holding you and your family to Him in prayer and thanksgiving. Although we only had the opportunity to meet once last summer, I was inspired by your level of love and service - just as I am now. Since we have learned of this battle you are entrenched in, Tim and I have continued to follow each round and share it with the church family at Baker Street. It has been a sincere honor to be anointed on your behalf and to encourage your friends here to stand alongside in this war that you and God together will win. I am humbled that we are privileged to share in this trial just as we were in the joy of learning more about your mission life. The people you love and serve there and the many vital projects that they are dependent on are also being prayed over. Sometimes we seem helpless to know what to do or how to do more, but we take courage in remembering that this world and all it's battles have already been conquered by the One far greater than any of us. So, we pray and we praise and we wait with you for that is what we are not only called to do but is our honor. May this week of rest bring more than just glimpses of our gracious Father but also His touch and presence in a way that you and your precious family have never experienced before. And I hope that all those little things that you love and have missed during this time would be poured out in abundance to nurture that hope within. Love, Deanna Rodeheaver
ReplyDeletePrayers of thanksgiving for all God is doing and for the healing taking place in your body. Thankful the chemo is done! Praying we see each other in November, Carla
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