Good news! My count has risen and they start the process of getting my treatment ready. Hooked up and ready, starting to feel drowsy from the Benadryl, and entering this warm fuzziness of sleepy, my body starts to react -- first with rising body heat, then tremendous back spasms spreading into my legs and arms. It pulls me from drugged sleepiness attempting to call for a nurse. Even mouthing out the words properly due to the medicine inside of me, is impossible. The patient on my right sees my dilemma and calls out, as family support are in the hallway due to lack of space and are not aware of this, but quickly enter as soon as they hear. Clearly not lucid, I feel the pain, over and over.
Another dose of Benadryl added, keeping me twitching and reacting -- is there no end to this? They move me now to a quieter room where a bed is prepared for me to lay down on, and slowly my body relaxes and I drift into a deep sleep. Eventually, I wake to see the room in darkness with family waiting so patiently, comfortingly there, keeping my back.
The day is done and home we head, with another round done.
Tomorrow is the day for the injection to boost the white blood cells in order to keep immunity going. The Victory program has generously donated this very expensive vial for my body to recoup. Once again -- a miracle! God's immeasurable grace.
"You alone are my heart's desire and I long to worship you..." My heart is full tonight as I think of how many times God has made the impossible, possible. I do know I am NOT alone in this, and this has been a constant in my journey. My hearts song tonight is adoration, for all that has been done in my life. Each person who has contributed a word, a call, a card --I thank God for you. Corners become smooth, storms calm, peace instills because I am a CHILD OF THE KING.
17I shall not die but live, and shall declare the works and recount the illustrious acts of the Lord. Psalm 118:17
Colleen, I sit at my desk at work and wish I could be there, to hold your hand or bring you a warm blanket or fix a comforting meal. I know others are doing these things for you because this is the way we show our love and concern. My thoughts are with you, my prayers continually flow for you, my love is there. You are an inspiration to so many.
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Dear Colleen,
ReplyDeleteThe dear Lord will not leave or forsake you.
Blessings and Love
the Steinkes
I am constantly amazed at the strength you portray as you walk along this path of recovery. It should not surprise me as you always came through many trails before this when you still were under our roof. You are so loved by your Mom & Dad and wish we could be with you all along the way of your time of recovery. You always will be the pride of our life! We so enjoyed the few days you just spent with us in sunny Okanagan. May the Lord continue to be your Healer, touching you as you move ahead, giving you the strength needed to endure in times of pain. We love you! - Dad
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ReplyDeleteMy friend Jodie had that same reaction at one of her chemo treatments. It is a scary thing to experience. I pray they will be able to adjust the medication so that you will not have that reaction again. We love you and are praying for you, each step of the way.
Colleen, praying for you my friend, thanking God for carrying you through this journey. Looking forward to hearing the chemo is complete and has done its job! Prayers and love, Carla
ReplyDeleteColleen, I am praying for you every day. While I do not know what it feels like to go through a chemo treatment, I do know that God does. I am so thankful you have Him by your side with His unmatchable abiding presence.
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